Chillax...

Yeah, I got suckered into buying it and then suckered into watching it last night..

What's it?

Twilight. Bah.

The girl has seen it 19 million times but wanted to lay in my bed and watch it with me, than got up and said I'm tired there's about 15 minutes left to watch, goodnight..


WTF??

I didn't want to see it in the first place, but I can't pass up the opportunity to cuddle with my girl, something that happens rarely now that she is older. So, I did it and then ended up watching the end of it by myself!

The movie was awful. The acting sucked, the plot was bad... it just sucked all the way around, but maybe cause I'm an adult and not some hysterical girl who thinks that "Edward" is cute. Ick.

Still not feeling like myself. I'm beginning to think that this is the new normal for me. I don't hold food down well, if at all. I'm always cold, which new dude says is probably because I never eat, though I do eat, just not very much at all. My voice is all raspy and horsey with a cough that won't go away. I have very little energy to do much, my house is a mess and I'm totally disgusted with it. I take a ton of vitamins so one would think that I would have at least some energy. I've fallen behind in my email replies and feel like shit about that. I've just found 2 new/old friends (one I've written about, the other found me today)which is exciting, but I just don't seem to have the energy to catch up like I should especially with these two, both women and both who mean a lot to me.

I promised myself that I would close my eyes and try to sleep early last night and all of the sudden it was 3am and I didn't know what happened, only that I still had my eyes open and was wide awake. Up at 8am this morning, to take the girl to new dudes house, so he could cut her hair and do a trial mock up hair do for her prom (which reminds me, I must tell you about her prom "date" or the lack of one now and yes, new dude cuts hair, but doesn't have a license here in NV - he worked under Paul Mitchell for 8 years I think). I told the girl on the way to his house to watch him, cause new dude does a lot of sighing and ohhhh and ummm and stuff.. and it makes me laugh all the time. Then she cracked us both up cause she said, OMG my mother is hanging out with you too much because she sounds like that EVERY MORNING NOW and it makes me crazy! I guess in the mornings I've picked up this bad habit from him (though he does it all day and night) with the sighing and the uhhh and the ahhh and heavy breathing. I've caught myself doing it a few times since we got back home today, which is making me laugh and annoyed at myself all at the same time, but at least I realize I am doing it now so am working on NOT doing it, cause really - it's annoying when he does it constantly.

Ok, nap time. I know I shouldn't take a nap, but I'm so freaking tired my eyes are rolling in the back of my head. I plan on cleaning house tomorrow (key word, "plan", who knows if it will happen) I really want to go to the Mountain on Thursday, sit and "chillax", take some pictures and breathe some fresh air.. so many things I want to do and no energy to do it. Am going to talk to the doctor next time I go in for a weigh in. See if there is a vitamin I am not taking that may help me out... I take so many, including Prenatal ones since they are good for you, I can't imagine that I am missing any. I'll probably get harrassed about not eating 3 meals a day. I'm lucky if I eat one a day and keep it down.. I'm just not hungry, even though I know I should try to eat 3 small meals a day, just tired of throwing up all the time.

Peace.