Chillax...

Yeah, I got suckered into buying it and then suckered into watching it last night..

What's it?

Twilight. Bah.

The girl has seen it 19 million times but wanted to lay in my bed and watch it with me, than got up and said I'm tired there's about 15 minutes left to watch, goodnight..


WTF??

I didn't want to see it in the first place, but I can't pass up the opportunity to cuddle with my girl, something that happens rarely now that she is older. So, I did it and then ended up watching the end of it by myself!

The movie was awful. The acting sucked, the plot was bad... it just sucked all the way around, but maybe cause I'm an adult and not some hysterical girl who thinks that "Edward" is cute. Ick.

Still not feeling like myself. I'm beginning to think that this is the new normal for me. I don't hold food down well, if at all. I'm always cold, which new dude says is probably because I never eat, though I do eat, just not very much at all. My voice is all raspy and horsey with a cough that won't go away. I have very little energy to do much, my house is a mess and I'm totally disgusted with it. I take a ton of vitamins so one would think that I would have at least some energy. I've fallen behind in my email replies and feel like shit about that. I've just found 2 new/old friends (one I've written about, the other found me today)which is exciting, but I just don't seem to have the energy to catch up like I should especially with these two, both women and both who mean a lot to me.

I promised myself that I would close my eyes and try to sleep early last night and all of the sudden it was 3am and I didn't know what happened, only that I still had my eyes open and was wide awake. Up at 8am this morning, to take the girl to new dudes house, so he could cut her hair and do a trial mock up hair do for her prom (which reminds me, I must tell you about her prom "date" or the lack of one now and yes, new dude cuts hair, but doesn't have a license here in NV - he worked under Paul Mitchell for 8 years I think). I told the girl on the way to his house to watch him, cause new dude does a lot of sighing and ohhhh and ummm and stuff.. and it makes me laugh all the time. Then she cracked us both up cause she said, OMG my mother is hanging out with you too much because she sounds like that EVERY MORNING NOW and it makes me crazy! I guess in the mornings I've picked up this bad habit from him (though he does it all day and night) with the sighing and the uhhh and the ahhh and heavy breathing. I've caught myself doing it a few times since we got back home today, which is making me laugh and annoyed at myself all at the same time, but at least I realize I am doing it now so am working on NOT doing it, cause really - it's annoying when he does it constantly.

Ok, nap time. I know I shouldn't take a nap, but I'm so freaking tired my eyes are rolling in the back of my head. I plan on cleaning house tomorrow (key word, "plan", who knows if it will happen) I really want to go to the Mountain on Thursday, sit and "chillax", take some pictures and breathe some fresh air.. so many things I want to do and no energy to do it. Am going to talk to the doctor next time I go in for a weigh in. See if there is a vitamin I am not taking that may help me out... I take so many, including Prenatal ones since they are good for you, I can't imagine that I am missing any. I'll probably get harrassed about not eating 3 meals a day. I'm lucky if I eat one a day and keep it down.. I'm just not hungry, even though I know I should try to eat 3 small meals a day, just tired of throwing up all the time.

Peace.

18

The girl turns 18 in Feb. 18. I remember when she was 8 weeks old and we fled from our home in California after her father tried to kill us and wound up here in Vegas. I remember when she was 8 months old and starting to walk. I remember when she was 8 years old and cuddled me all the time... sometimes, she still cuddles me.

I want to take her on a trip, just her and I, in March (during spring break). First I thought of Mexico, but that was nixed when I mentioned it to my father and he informed me that people were being kidnapped and killed. So, I thought, New York City. But, she asked, "what will we do there"... I had thought we could go see Good Morning America in person and Live with Regis and Kelly and maybe a Broadway show. The first two things are really what "I" want to do, the Broadway show is something she would enjoy... but, it looks like NYC might be out of the running cause really - what WOULD we do there? I'm not able to do much walking due to my foot and cabs are simply to expensive to take every where...

So, Bloggyland, here's my question... Where should I take the girl? Some place not to expensive, some place with things to do (Disney World and Disneyland are out). We've spent plenty of time in California so that's out. She hates Arizona, so Sedona is out and I dislike Florida, so that is out too. I mentioned a dude ranch in Wyoming or Montana, though while we both like to horseback ride, there's only so much of that we can do and I don't want a working vacation, like herding cows or something like that.

This trip will be about 5 days long. I need help. Suggestions, suggestions, suggestions... all suggestions will be well thought out and responded to.

So, give me your best!

Ugly Dolls...

Yes, they are actually called that. Check them out at Ugly Dolls My daughter told me about them a while ago and of course she wanted one..

I ordered her two for 19.95$ a while ago and am still waiting for them to come. With my money trouble this month, I'm glad she told me about them months ago when I had some money to order her one, but I got a good deal, two for the price of one.

They really ARE ugly!