Friday, February 20, 2009

Minden, Dude...

Minden dude comes tonight. I have no idea when he will be in. I've been waiting to hear from him, asked him to give me an hour before he gets to town so that I can do my thing...

If he drives like me, 320 miles, about 4 hours, but I have a feeling he doesn't drive like me, he mentioned he goes the speed limit, doesn't want any tickets...

So, I don't know what will happen. This is the man that has been looking for me off and on for 12 years now. We spent some time together 12 years ago, but I wasn't ready for a relationship of any magnitude back then. My relationship with the boys father had been a bad one, break up was bad and I was afraid. So, Minden dude and I lost contact. I went one way in my life, he went another way in his.

And then I signed up on this biker personals thing, like e harmonany or some sorta thing like that, but for bikers (yeah, maybe you didn't know that I'm a hard core biker bitch, tattoos and piercings, use to run with 1%'ers (outlaw bikers, can't mention names though) won't get on the back of anything but a harely don't put that honda in my driveway either, damn rice rockets... but I digress) He too joined the site, the same time I did. HOW he found me on it I've no clue, though I've carried the moniker "wisprnsoul" for 15 years now or so, maybe that's how he found me...

I think that I am about the same weight I was back then, maybe a bit smaller than I am now, but he knows I am working on the weight issue.. it's an issue for me, for him, not sure - I guess I'll find out tonight. Right now, I am in bed, under the covers deciding on a nap or not, even though he could be in town within the next couple of hours, IF he left Minden when he said he was.. I have a bag packed, since we may go to Phx tomorrow which would be nice, he wants to go to the gun show and I want to see my father...

Like I said, who knows what will happen, once we see each other again. There was a spark once, but I was too afraid of a relationship then and now... not so sure again, having not had much luck with men lately. But, I am trying to go into this with my mind and heart open..

Wish me luck.

1 comment:

annie kelleher said...

so sorry i missed you today!!! take it easy... remember to breathe :).