Oct is Breast Cancer Awareness Month. While I am one of the lucky ones and have never had to deal with breast cancer myself, I have 2 close friends who both have had to have mastectomies due to breast cancer. One is a fairly new friend, I've known her about 3 years, I met her when she first was diagnoised and she was going through chemo, was bald and would wear these beautiful scarfs on her head but was FULL of life, defying all odds. She's an awesome person, early 50's and I just LOVE to go out with her now for karaoke. She looked it in the eye and said, "YOU will NOT kill me" and it didn't.
She began the process of a new boob, had some trouble and set back but now is on the right track again...
And then there is my oldest friend in the world. We met when we were 15. Our bdays are only 5 days apart. We met in Scotsdale Az for the one year we attended boarding school (at the insistence of my grandmother, since I'd been living on the street for nearly a year) My friend, has had a difficult time health wise. First at age 36, she had twin boys who passed at 1 day and 4 days it broke her heart as she had been trying for years to have children. Then diagonized with Breast Cancer. She had a double mastectomie and went through chemo. She and my other friend are surviours thank you to the technalogy these days. A bout of depression over whelmed her and then all of the sudden she was preganent again and is now the proud mother of an 7 year old beautiful girl, Hannah. She's doing awesome and is in remission as his my other friend, but that doesn't mean the fight is over.
Today, my contribution to help finacially was to purchase pink reuseable marketing bags which are way cool. As well as a few other items that will benefit Susan B Golmam (spelling?) fund.
What have you done to help raise money?
Monday, October 5, 2009
Nova going home.
Look how cute and alert this grandchild of mine is! Heh. I love her more and more..
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Technically...
Because of my bipolar, anxieties and my inability to leave my house without anti-anxiety meds, I qualify for a service monkey.
Yes, I said, monkey. Shut up.
The boy said he would run away from home if I got a monkey. He doesn't know that getting a monkey only appeals more to me after saying that. I said I LOVE my kids more than anything, but I never said I want them to LIVE with me forever - though I do miss my daughter a ton since she moved to her grandfathers but still.. a trained service monkey!
I know, I know... I hear the same things in my head. Primates are wild animals and shouldn't be domesticated, blah blah blah. My children aren't very domesticated, so how domesticated do you think I could get a monkey!
I'm having a bit of separation anxiety since my daughter moved to dads house and not being able to hold Nova and thinking about how in only 4 short years the boy will be 18 and wanting to move out too. I'm feeling the empty nest thing earlier than I suppose I should be and wanting someone to be here with me... Maybe if I had a life or a relationship maybe I wouldn't feel like this. I don't know.
This is life in the empty lane. *sighs*
Yes, I said, monkey. Shut up.
The boy said he would run away from home if I got a monkey. He doesn't know that getting a monkey only appeals more to me after saying that. I said I LOVE my kids more than anything, but I never said I want them to LIVE with me forever - though I do miss my daughter a ton since she moved to her grandfathers but still.. a trained service monkey!
I know, I know... I hear the same things in my head. Primates are wild animals and shouldn't be domesticated, blah blah blah. My children aren't very domesticated, so how domesticated do you think I could get a monkey!
I'm having a bit of separation anxiety since my daughter moved to dads house and not being able to hold Nova and thinking about how in only 4 short years the boy will be 18 and wanting to move out too. I'm feeling the empty nest thing earlier than I suppose I should be and wanting someone to be here with me... Maybe if I had a life or a relationship maybe I wouldn't feel like this. I don't know.
This is life in the empty lane. *sighs*
Love.
Loving someone is never an easy deal, other than my own children and even at times they make it difficult to love them but I do always no matter what.
I never thought though, that I would love someone MORE than I love my own children, flesh of my flesh, born from me... but I do.
Yet, it isn't the same. It's a powerful love that I have for this tiny being I've yet to hold, almost an obsession or perhaps not even almost.. I AM obsessed with this little chubby cheeked human.
I'm constantly checking my email and facebook page for new photos of her and if I don't see any, I just open the folder up that I have with the pictures I have of her or I come here and read my blog, not to mention all the phone calls I've been making to my son when I DON'T see new pictures up, leaving him messages to post more pictures. Soon, he will be building a web page devoted just to Nova, but until then I'm at his mercy for photos which definitely are not coming fast enough for me!
What's going to happen when I finally am able to hold her and love on her and then have to leave her behind? My heart will be ripped apart, I just know it. If I thought I could stand it, I would move to Ventura County, Ca just to be next to her... but then I would also have to be near my mother, my ex husband and his wife and that would spoil it all for me.. no positive energy from any of those people.
They leave the hospital tomorrow, mama, daddy and baby. My DIL had to stay in the hospital for 3 days due to the c-section, which was odd to me, since my daughter was c-section and I think I was in the hospital only for 2 days - but who knows. At least they had people there to help them the first few days if they needed it, answer questions they might have, like Nova lost a pound and while I can tell them that's normal, they were more comfortable hearing it from a nurse, so it all works out well in the end.
I'm obsessed with my granddaughter and it's killing me to not be able to just run on over and hold her and kiss her and squish her fat cheeks. *sigh*
I never thought though, that I would love someone MORE than I love my own children, flesh of my flesh, born from me... but I do.
Yet, it isn't the same. It's a powerful love that I have for this tiny being I've yet to hold, almost an obsession or perhaps not even almost.. I AM obsessed with this little chubby cheeked human.
I'm constantly checking my email and facebook page for new photos of her and if I don't see any, I just open the folder up that I have with the pictures I have of her or I come here and read my blog, not to mention all the phone calls I've been making to my son when I DON'T see new pictures up, leaving him messages to post more pictures. Soon, he will be building a web page devoted just to Nova, but until then I'm at his mercy for photos which definitely are not coming fast enough for me!
What's going to happen when I finally am able to hold her and love on her and then have to leave her behind? My heart will be ripped apart, I just know it. If I thought I could stand it, I would move to Ventura County, Ca just to be next to her... but then I would also have to be near my mother, my ex husband and his wife and that would spoil it all for me.. no positive energy from any of those people.
They leave the hospital tomorrow, mama, daddy and baby. My DIL had to stay in the hospital for 3 days due to the c-section, which was odd to me, since my daughter was c-section and I think I was in the hospital only for 2 days - but who knows. At least they had people there to help them the first few days if they needed it, answer questions they might have, like Nova lost a pound and while I can tell them that's normal, they were more comfortable hearing it from a nurse, so it all works out well in the end.
I'm obsessed with my granddaughter and it's killing me to not be able to just run on over and hold her and kiss her and squish her fat cheeks. *sigh*
Saturday, October 3, 2009
How can you NOT...
Think this is the most gorgeous baby ever born! Cuter even than the children I gave birth to and one of them is her daddy! Ha!
Friday, October 2, 2009
Can you say....hmm.. not sure WHAT to say
I'm SO sick of all the Jon and Kate plus 8 stuff, however..
Look closely. Closer. CLOSER. See it? I know you do.
Does anyone proofread anymore? Bet he doesn't even know how to spell epiphany, even though he can say the word.
Guess what...
If you guessed, "more pictures of Nova" then you are right! I can't help it, she's just too cute to not share with everyone! So, here she is again being the good little girl she already is. MAN I WISH I WAS THERE!!! Look at those fat cheeks!
8 pounds, 20 1/2 inches
BIG baby! She's perfect in every way! I can't wait to be able to squish her face and nibble on her toes. My son is showing some hmm.. modesty in his picture taking. LOL I have nudes of all my kids when they were first born and older... LOVE the green bow!
Tell me this isn't the cutest baby ever born! HA! I can't stop looking at her and the tears keep rolling. This little life is going to call me Gamma one day. Whew.
Tell me this isn't the cutest baby ever born! HA! I can't stop looking at her and the tears keep rolling. This little life is going to call me Gamma one day. Whew.
Introducing!!!!!!!!!
Nova Leone. Don't ask me how much she weighs or how big she is cause my son hasn't told me yet. He posted this picture to his facebook page so this is all I have right now but I'm sure to have tons more later.
She was a c-section about 15 minutes or so ago! Of course she is the most beautiful baby in the whole world.
Heh. I'm. A. Grandma.
She was a c-section about 15 minutes or so ago! Of course she is the most beautiful baby in the whole world.
Heh. I'm. A. Grandma.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
3:30am induced...
They are inducing my DIL at 3:30am this morning. They say so that she'll have Chewy tomorrow afternoon.
Oh (lol) oh (lol) oh (lol) oh (lol) <--me jumping up and down with giggles and anticipation. Nice visual, eh?
Got permission to post her pictures here, so as soon as I have some, I'll be plastering this blog with them!
Oh (lol) oh (lol) oh (lol) oh (lol) <--me jumping up and down with giggles and anticipation. Nice visual, eh?
Got permission to post her pictures here, so as soon as I have some, I'll be plastering this blog with them!
Soon!
My DIL is at the hospital to have her cervix dialated! If that doesn't send her into labor, they will induce her tomorrow!
(does the happy dance) I'm going to be a grandma tonight or tomorrow! WooHoo!!
(does the happy dance) I'm going to be a grandma tonight or tomorrow! WooHoo!!
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