I was looking through my sister Tracie's facebook pictures. For those that don't know, Tracie is my baby sister from my mother and stepfather. She's 23. Yep, a year and a half younger than my son!
Well, I am going to do something I thought I never would. I'm going to post a picture of me at my highest weight...taken at my sons wedding in August of 2008. Below it, is a picture of me and my daughter, taken at her graduation in June of this year. I look at the picture of me and my sister Tracie and I wonder, why did no one tell me how fat I was? And the picture of my daughter and I? I've since lost about another 30 pounds. I still have a ways to go... because I was sick and didn't know it (with my heart) I had no energy to even excersise and thus, I've got some skin that I am working on losing now. I work out in the pool nearly everyday now, have a nice tan going on (in both pictures I am very pale and you can see the bags under my eyes that I know longer have since my heart surgery), but so far no luck with the extra skin... I'm just going to keep at it though and hope that most of it begins to go away, though I am pretty resigned to the fact that I will probably need at least a tummy tuck. Also, for some reason I allowed my stupid sister (not the one in the picture) to cut my hair real short before the wedding and really? Fat people should not have short hair - at least this fat person. Now my hair is longer, even longer than in the second picture.
So without further ado...and I can't believe I am doing this but here's me one month before my lap band surgery and then there's me 9 months after my surgery. I was gross and honestly, when I look in the mirror I still see a very fat me, even though I'm down almost 130 pounds since the first picture was taken.. And please, no mean comments. I see now how gross I was (I suppose I was in complete denial thinking I looked good and was all that - and pow - I did NOT look good and I am STILL not all that!)a part of me still feels that gross, so I don't need anyone here beating me up about it, I do a good job all on my own...
Little sister Tracie and I... August 2008
Daughter and I... June 2009