Finally...

Have heard from Minden Dude, he'll be here in less than an hour. I am actually looking forward to seeing him and hope that I look nice enough for him...

As scared as I was those many years ago, this man has always had a powerful hold over me and apparently I had one over him, if he was looking for me for so long.

I'm dressed in a pretty little dress, hoping it's not too short.. well it wouldn't be too short for him, but we are going out so I'm hoping it's not to short for going out! I have another one, just in case.. though I know he will like that this one is so short, he's just like that...

I had to take 2 xanex's to calm down from the phone call about dad today, as I was afraid I might break down crying the minute I see Minden Dude and that's no way to begin... though I do have to tell him what is going on with Dad..

I just need to be held and I know he will do that.

I'm not taking my computer, though I may come back home and get it.. if needed. So don't worry about me if you don't hear from me for a few days, I'll be fine.