I'm spoiled. Not in a mean way, a nasty mean way... a nice endearing kind of way. And truth be known, yes, he's been spoiling me. Not with gifts, material things - but with his attention, his hand holding, his cuddling, his conversations... his sharing of himself. I keep thinking it's to good to be true, not sure how to deal with it just yet but I'm not letting go... I'm not going to walk away or push him away - because I feel content, really really content for the first time in a long time...but I am trying to keep my self slightly distant, not so much that it's getting in the way of a loving, caring relationship, but enough that I hopefully won't be hurt. Yet, if I don't take the risk, I can't ever know if this is real.
There's drama behind the scenes, but I'm just not up to typing it right now.
I just know that I am glad he found me, cause I wasn't looking.
In a perfect world, I could tell you I was this awesome person. But, this is not a perfect world and I am far from awesome.
I'm just me. I have good days, bad days and inbetween days.
This is my life, usually in the fast lane and sometimes in the wrong lane. It's my life, it might be crazy, yet it's all I have.